im full of emotions at the moment.like 100s of emotions are swirling in my mind at this very second.i have anger,happyness,love,sad,curious,embarssesment,friendly,dangerous,confidenice,shynesss,crazyness,and determination.the main things taking over my body are love,determination,happyness,curious.they have to deal with 3 things going on at the moment.one is carson.he takes my love and curious.i dont love him i promise i dont.love doesnt come till maturity develops.i just like him alot.how questions involve him is.. does he like me?why are lots of his friends mine?if were we alike?if yes,how can i deal with that when i hate people just like me?are able to be at least friends?will we ever say hi too each other?when are all my questions going too be answered?im hopeless with him.he just confuses and hypotizes my brain.now the happyness taking over is dancing.im a huge fan of dancing.im more of a freesstyle kind of person.its a lifestyle,not a habit.i listen too songs more than i should.i could say my life was devoted to music but that would be wrong.but part of my life is.dancing is the only way for me to clear my mind suck it up and get on with my life.i have thought of other ways too,like suicide,running away,cutting myself,getting drunk,or just live in complete sadness.im 12 so i shouldnt be doing of this,well no one should but im young so especailly me.thats not the only reason ive not done any of that.another is any of those choices would either cause me physical or emotional pain to myself and others.so i figured dancing is easy and its wonderful.it helps me when im down or cant get it together.im never really sad.its once in a blue moon ill be sad or serious.(guess dancing really helps)determination takes most of it.im determined constanly to do retarded,silly,funny,fun,or awesome things.its like it never leaves my brain or body.its in my horamones.ive been trying to do backbend in less than 3 seconds(success),flip over from a backbend(doing),spits both ways(success),look prettier(cant really tell),have more fun(always successing),get great grades(end of the school year ill tell you)become twice as athletic(success).if you finished reading this then you probaly need too know that everything i just said wasnt true.it was fake.i was bored so i just said random things.jk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!everything i said was true.im serious.if you finished this...yay for you!!!!!!im never really this seriious so yeah your lucky i did this when i was instead of dancing.well,im awesome and thats the end of it.byee!!!!
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all this was just today not everyday.just
saying.thx 4 reding!
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