-Sometimes I get so much crap built up that I just have to vent some of it into the endless hole of internet.
-I secretly wish I had a "prodigal son" story to tell, instead of a "Well, I'm a Christian and have been for a long time" story.
-I frequently think of what will happen when I die. I question who will mourn me and whether the world will be any better or worse when I am gone.
-I wish that a guy would treat me like a delicate porcelain princess. I know some girls hate it and feel that it goes against all things feminist, but I wish for it regardless.
-I hate being dependent upon two pieces of plastic to be able to see. I hate depending on people and asking for help. I hate depending on anything, which is one of the reasons why it's so difficult for me to rely on God.
-My first and last relationship ended two and half years ago. In high school, thats a lifetime. I play it off like I am totally content without one. But it's mainly because I am afraid I wouldn't know what to do in relationship since it's been so long, and I have next to no experience with these things.
-When I think about my friends for extended amounts of time or am away from them for large periods, I often pick them apart in my head until I no longer like them or see any reasons to like them. This makes me feel terrible when I eventually see them again.
-Often times I will sit and sarcastically pick apart any unrealistic characteristics of Disney movies, such as talking friendly animals, but in my head I secretly wish these things were real.
-I have a love/hate relationship with Taylor Swift's music. At times I hate it because it seems so girlishly cheesy and at other times I can't help but enjoy it like the teenage girl that I truly am.
-I worry that I will never be content with anything as I pick apart everything for imperfections.
-I spend huge amounts of time playing out dramatic/hilarious things that I could do, that I know I won't actually do because of my fears or some other restraint.
-Things that I say, quite frequently sound much better in my head than out loud.
-There have been times in my life when I have honestly thought it would be better if I was born male instead. (Mostly due to terribly masculine haircuts and unkind comments)
-I do not like speaking in front of people. At times I will not say answers in class because I am that illogically afraid of speaking in front of people. I worry that this will inhibit my ability to hold certain jobs in the future. I'm not aiming to be a politian or anything, but I would like to be able to share my ideas without an insane amount of shaking.
-All I asked for this Christmas was books. All I got for Christmas was books. I am completely content with this, honestly.
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