Not bothering with anything anymore. School is the biggest thing for me right now, I have 6 months left which isn't bad at all. But I just wish it would be over already, I have almost all my childhood classes done. The rest of the classes I have to take are computer bullshit classes which blows. I just don't think it's needed for me to want to work with children. I want to keep going for my bachelors & masters but I don't know if I'll be able to do it. I want to start living life the way I want, I want to enjoy things. I want to be with the person that makes me smile 24/7, that when I think of him I can't help but feel silly and feel my heart beat faster, butterflies & all. Someone that I can sleep with every night, feeling completely safe every night in his arms. Someone I can wake up to and kiss while cuddling with till we absolutely have to get up for the day. I want to be with someone & be able to enjoy the simple things with them. Instead of doing almost 6 to 8 more years of schooling I want to start thinking family wise. I know it's silly to think about & it'll most likely scare every guy away but it's how I feel. I want it to be with the person I'm in love with though, because if it was it'd be so much better. I can't settle for just anyone, I'm just tired of being alone.
Kanato · Thu May 05, 2011 @ 03:39am · 0 Comments |