Do I announce that I will lose touch with reality for indefinite period of time, just because of a feeling? You've been informed. I am slipping away.
What's at the bottom of the pit? What's hiding there? How do I reach that point? Substance abuse to get the repressed subconscious forward into light... is it a process or an event?
"He shot himself because he thought he was supposed to be the one to die.. ". The world seems to be whispering in my ear to kill myself, still. Am I projecting this meaning? Check previous entries for references.
The disease to please. By not telling you what I think or set boundaries, so I don't hurt your feelings, all I'm doing is giving myself a chance to grow resentful and be an a*****e towards you, thus ruining our relationship. So much better than hurting one's feelings. Maybe I can still be thought of kindly by respectfully declining a friendship, rather than being a bad friend and, in the process, losing the friendship anyway.
Notice the slight change in my writing style. It has only because apparent to me after the words appeared. It doesn't matter, I'm not writing a novel or anything of sort.
 niatsu · Sun Jun 19, 2011 @ 02:18am · 0 Comments |
