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My new house... the one that I'm going to move into around April 17th or so. It's being built, so it's brand new. <3 It looks absolutely incredible to me. After being stuck in a two roomed apartment with three dogs and three other people, I am seriously ready for my own space. Maybe if that doesn't really seem like a lot, let me tell about how it was like before almost everyone moved out. At first, it was just me, my sister, and my mom. Me and my sister shared a room while my mom had her own. Then my brother moved in, so he got his own room and my sister went with my mom while I went into the living room.
Next, my other brother and his wife moved in as well. They got their own room together, and my brother went in with my sister and mom. I stayed sleeping on the living room floor, sometimes the couch. That's about seven people. We had one dog, one of those little Yorkies. It was my brother's and his wife's.
And then, guess what? My aunt and her two children moved in too with their own dog.
A few months. And my mom got me a dog. That's about nine people with three dogs stuffed together in a two-roomed apartment. Twelve beings. D:
Then, they all just... moved out. And now it's just me, my mom, my aunt, and my little cousin. I just cannot wait to move into the new house. We can all get our own rooms.
But one of the rooms is rather... small and doesn't have a closet. I guess that I'm being picky about it, but I'm just rrreeeaaalllyy hoping that I don't end up with that small room. I haven't had my own personal space in about five to six years, maybe even longer. Come to think of it, I don't think that I've actually had my own room. I did have one once when I was in third grade, but I was too chicken and slept with my mom each and every night. XD I neglected my room. I pretty much only went in there to change during the morning. Least it was always clean....
Over all, I think that even if I do end up with the small room that I'll be happy. In my mind, I think that it should be my little cousin who gets it since she's the youngest. But I think that's just what I think because I want the room so badly. And another thought of mine is that I should get the room because I'm more polite then she is. I just want the room so badly that I think up of all of these things. I mean, my little cousin is a brat. She's the one in the family who gets on everyones' nerves the most, even those who aren't in the family. She's always complaining and she's incredibly picky, I can't even stand being near her. I won't even let her hug me because I just absolutely loathe her so much. And then I also add in my mind that she's been able to have her own room for quite a while now while I haven't.
And then I just... ugh. I don't know. I just don't want to end up with a small room so badly that my mind quickly jumps to stating that my cousin should get the room, not me. Makes me feel ugly in a wierd way. I just absolutely hate my cousin but I feel like I'm being unjust by just thinking that I should get one of the larger rooms because I'm "better" then she is. I tell myself that that's not what I'm actually thinking but in pure truth it is.
I hate it when I make things this complicated. Eh, ********.
And now my cousin is blabbering on the phone... she grosses me out.... She's twelve and she'll just go up to me and start moaning as if she's getting some type of sexual intercourse going on. It's disgusting. She does it just to annoy me. And she always goes up to me and say that she's going to give me a lap dance. Everytime I just keep on pushing her away from me. She's always there near me. Always making these sexual jokes and talking about other things that adults should talk about and she's only twelve. And the parents don't know about her wretched behavior. I know that I do things that I'm not supposed to but she's twelve and she's always going up and moaning and saying gross things.... When I get my own room it will be pure and utter bliss. Can finally just have a place where my cousin isn't in my face.
 MythicalYoko · Thu Mar 30, 2006 @ 11:15pm · 2 Comments |
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