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It's been a while. Much has happened, for better or for worse, who can say? I hate to come off all mysterious and s**t like that, but I'd really like the answer to my question. I guess it's not so much if it's been good or bad, but if it's just been.
Most of my time off of Gaia, was obviously because of Kingdom Hearts II coming out, everything kind of became unimportant. Call that pathetic, I wouldn't blame you. I'm almost done with it too, just a few more missions to complete, and I'll have finished Jiminy's Journal, which will unlock the Secret Ending, and then I can take some rest off of it. It's been kind of a way to get away, if you will, from the real world, when I have so many other worlds to experience. It really is a wonderful game, I've read some of the reviews online, and while I agree with most of the opinions regarding the gameplay, I never did play this game for that, the story always kept me coming back, and from the way people are talking, it might do so when the third installment comes out when I'm like 21. I haven't beaten the game yet, I want everything including the secrets to just all happen at once. Josh decided to beat it at least once just to see it, and I sort of envy and pity him. But enough about the game.
School the past two weeks was difficult to say the least, we had the portfolios and the Mock Interviews at the end of last week. They went fine, Spring Break couldn't have come at an easier time. It's ridiculous how you get so nervous for something like that, and people always tell you not to be, and that's almost like a trigger for you to get even more nervous, because you think, well if they're telling you not to, there's obviously a reason to be, right? I will say I got an easy pick in terms of my interviewer, I know if I had gotten the people that say Tabatha and Amber had, I probably wouldn't have done as well as I did. The lady I had, Connie Christenson, was really nice, she works at the Water District here in Las Vegas, and it was nice talking to her. Later, when I got my evaluation papers to look at them, it said I could have shown a little more self-confidence, and I needed to smile more, which is what I had expected her to say. I don't know, I guess I just don't feel as open towards things with adults, I don't think I ever will, no matter how old I get, it's awkward, I suppose.
I'm worried, because it's already Tuesday, and except for J-Team and a party I went to Saturday, I've been cooped up, and I want to get out there and do something. Keeping in touch with everyone is difficult, I wish Jen hadn't left, it would have been nice to talk to her. It was really nice to see her on Friday, it had been a while. I'm hoping to go see Sonja at work tomorro/today's afternoon, I haven't done that since last year when I went with Jen. Russell seems to be doing ok, I wish he would at least bother talking to me about Tori Lynn, for being so happy with her, you think he would have said something to me, instead of me having to find out through the grapevine and from his journals. He'll probably say something like, "Oh, you know I don't like being open about stuff like that." Well too bad, if you can say it in an online blog, you can say it to me face to face.
I feel terrible, I haven't been a very good friend. Sonja's giving out Easter Baskets, I swear I owe this girl like my first born child for all the stuff she does for me, I'm such a leech sometimes. I need to start giving back somehow, but I'm not sure how.
I feel bad that I'm not going to GradNite, but in the end I couldn't work up the courage to ask my dad if I could go since we're supposed to go as like a family two weeks later than the date for it anyway. I would feel terrible if he said no anyway, so for some reason it feels better to just never have to find out. I would like to see what it would be like, and I hope Josh and everyone else have a good time. Another thing is Prom, I'm not much for that either, but like GradNite, it just seems like one of those things that if I don't do, I'll regret and look back upon and say I missed out terribly. I don't even have a date, and I'm not sure anyone would ask, I don't even have anyone in mind I would want to go with. This whole thing is making my head hurt, why do social events have to be so frustrating?
I keep trying to look for a job, but that's not going too well either. I need to get my act in gear or something. I'll see what I can do.
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Did You Know?: The Hundred Years War actually last 116 years, from 1337 to 1453.
Edible Substance · Tue Apr 11, 2006 @ 09:15am · 1 Comments |
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