Im sad. I can't help feeling sad right now. I am just full of emotions that its like a huge ball of nails, glass, rocks, and wood that I would just love to throw away.
My past keeps appearing and haunting me sad I feel trapped in a loop of regret and sadness.
I lost my passion for singing. My past is so painful. I had to remember it again to help my friend get over a break-up and help her feel better. I ended up spilling about how I felt bad about being treated poorly. I wanna cry now. cry But the tears ain't falling. I remembered how I always wanted to be those girls who were surprised and were being shown how loved they were. For prom, they'd get asked so sweetly. I asked my ex then, why don't you ask me like how those guys ask their girls? All he said was "Duh, we are together. So it is expected."
I have no idea why I put up with that guy. I'm so glad I'm with Dwight. I'm so much better with him now (: He is my star in the sky, my hero, my strength, my everything. heart All I want right now is to go somewhere far away with him from this "world" I live in. Like a place with no signal, Facebook, Twitter, nagging parents, haters, posers and stress.
I was shaking in anger when I saw this girl I don't like today. That made my day even worse. She is celebrating her birthday tomorrow when her birthday is on the 31st. crazy.
Ugh! I feel so alone right now. Dwight is not here sad I just want his hugs. Why does he live so far away? crying
 candyronniexx · Mon Dec 10, 2012 @ 02:00pm · 3 Comments |
