Well... I'm glad to say that the cloud of sadness has FINALLY been lifted. Yesterday evening, I felt... I felt this surge of happiness and calmness. Like a final acceptance of the future and the putting down of the past. Now, when I think of the past, I don't feel hatred and depressed anymore. I just feel... well, it's the past. It's gone. And if people want to make me feel sad by bringing it up... they can go piss off. Like, seriously.
I'm in the present now. Chris makes me feel... so loved. Accepted. I'm... well, I never thought I'd say this when I was in the depression stage... but... I'm so happy. I'm... so much happier than I've ever been in my whole Gaia life. I don't usually write this sort of things down. XP But... this time... I want people to KNOW. And I want people to know how great and wonderful Chris is to me. ^___^ I know a few of my friends were always telling me, "You deserve someone great, someone better, someone who'll treat you like a princess." And guess what? I found him.
*laughs* I feel so sappy now. >.< *milks self of sap* ...That sounds WRONG. >.< Oh well. A number of my friends have left Gaia recently... I miss them. *sighs* I don't know if I will ever leave Gaia like they did. I hope not. There are too many things here, too many friends, for me to leave. Of course, there are a few dissidents to that rule, some people who wish to make my life difficult... but... You know what...?
I don't care! *moons you* xD
AngelRaz · Thu May 18, 2006 @ 09:58am · 2 Comments |