How many ******** times is it possible for someone to screw up!?!? Are some people just not meant to get jobs, cos I've tried and tried and so far not one ******** interview!
WHAT THE ******** HELL AM I DOING WRONG!?!?!?
I'm pretty pissed now but more upset than anything. I mean I can't even get the shittest jobs. If I applied for to be a cleaner scrubbing toilets and mud-covered floors I probably wouldn't get it. Because quite frankly I am a loser and no one wants to employ them. They'd say, oh sorry but we recieved better applications than yours. Well I'm sorry but if I'm not qualified and good enough to scrub your toilets than you can ******** stick your head down one and swivel on it.
After months and months of looking for work and applying to so many jobs that I've lost count I decided in the end it would just be a matter of luck. That somehow I'll apply for a job that no one else was interested in, that somehow I'd be given a chance to prove myself.
I thought maybe someone would pick up my CV and think: hey she doesn't sound too bad let's give her a chance and have her in for an interview. But no. All they see is a blank space for work expericene and throw it in the bin.
Okay I have no experience but everyone at some point in their lives has to start somewhere. But what if that starting chance never appears, what if I have to live like this for the rest of my god damn life. I feel like such a loser, like I'm letting everyone down and in truth I am. My family is poor and they need the money, I've got bills to pay and no money in which to do so. I'm falling into a ******** depression that I'm scared I won't be able to get out of.
I just wish I could start my school life over and give up on the arty classes to focus on IT and those things.
I wanted a job I would love, I wanted to wake up every morning thinking, hey another interesting day at work to look forward to. I wanted to make my family proud of me and get money so I can help them out whenever they get into financial difficulty. I wanted to be the reliable daughter, I wanted to be successful. Sadly I'm an unemployed idiot who is still on benefits after half a year.
No one will ever give me a chance ever.
And you know the best part of all this shitty mess?!
Today my mum comes home saying: hey guess what, they have jobs in the supermarket you wanted, go and get an application form.
I was happy, suddenly thinking that maybe I'd have a chance! I mean supermarket jobs aren't confined to one sort of person, they'd be open to fresh people like me, wouldn't they? Well I'd been watching the vacancy board since december and the managment person told me that they didn't get many people leaving so it wouldn't happen that often.
But today, hey ho! Two jobs come up on the board. So I dash to the trainstation, jump on just in time, get to the place and enquire.
First the duty manager was too busy to see me and I was given an application form. I was too eager to apply so I went outside took the form to a cafe table and began to fill it out. Yeah and in my eagerness to get it done and taken in I made mistakes. I could kill myself for being such an idiot, I should have read the questions properly. I wrote a whole sentence before realising and knew it was too late. If I sent it in with mistakes and crossings out then that's it.
One glance. Bin.
I was quite literally heart broken. The one place I wanted to work in finally got jobs and I go screw up my chance.
I wanted to go back and ask for another form but I was too embarrassed to go in again only a few minutes. I mean that would only prove that I was clumsy and made mistakes easily, right? There'd be no point in trying anyway because they'd just remember it and say we probably don't want someone like that workign here.
So I'm screwed.
Kim.
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It sometimes is a lot to do with luck, i think. From what i've heard, the majority of jobs are actually filled by inside recommendations, and are never advertised to the public. Perhaps you could ask friends or relatives to let you know if their workplaces have any openings? Or try cold-calling companies you're interested in? It might be good to ask someone to go over your CV and a sample cover letter with you as well. All the best with your job hunting, Kim.