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Feels strange to type it out.

We shared moments together. We went to high school together. You'd jokingly call me mom.

This world was too cruel for you.
Some people just aren't cold and hardened like others.

I wish I had reached out more, I knew you were sad. But not that sad. I wish we had connected more. I could have invited you to more things, but I didn't. And that's something I will have to live with.

I'm sorry you felt the only way to escape your pain was to take your own life.
I'm sorry that this terrible world hurt you so bad.
I'm sorry that you were drowning and no one could save you.
This is the living's burden to bare now. It is our responsibility to carry on your memories, and to remember how you should be remembered. As a happy young man.
Even though you're dead and gone, your memory will carry on.

A life so young shouldn't be taken so soon.
But, I hope you are much happier now, in a world without pain or sadness.
Be happy Hayden. Be free.

If anyone reading this journal thinks they're in a dark place, feels suffocated, alone, just remember there is someone out there who cares for you. You aren't as alone as you think. Just take that step forward towards open arms, and you will be welcomed. And Loved.