You are beautiful to me.
You're dedication astonishes me, but also make's me sad.
I see all that you're capable of and all that you can accomplish, and I swell with pride, while at the same time my heart aches.
Watching you reminds me that I have accomplished nothing! I have no special talent; I have achieved no great purpose.
I wonder at times like this if my purpose in life is to love and serve another. I can see no other purpose for me.
I don't think I'd mind a life of servitude, as long as I was loved.
I wish I knew what I was meant to do.
My heart is not pulled in any particular direction, to do this or to do that.
I long for a purpose, for direction, I wish to find myself.
Am I not meant to find myself? Am I not even a whole person?
I feel so empty at times. Am I meant to feel this way? Am I to feel this emptiness until I find my other half?
Have I already found him? And if I have, how much longer must I wait before we completely fit together? Until I fill his center and he surrounds my soul?
I want to be whole...for once.
 Ryuuri · Wed Jan 05, 2005 @ 08:25pm · 1 Comments |
Kaigen is my guardian lover