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How much you can love someone How much you want to be with that person How much you miss him when he's not around How even a little word from him - or lack thereof - can make your whole day brighter How you wish you could be by his side, like, right NOW How you can remember every little thing he said, and how you wish you could give your whole life to him How what your parents say don't make sense to you anymore (All that stuff about not falling in love so soon) How every love song on the radio you hear just reminds you of him How every couple you see on the bus just reminds you of him and you
How love just touches every part of your life, and How, after you've tasted it, you never want ever to not have it again.
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Chris is doing well at the moment, still on his treatments and stuff, and of course I spend a pretty good bit of each day just thinking (I try not to worry so much now but it's still hard not to of course) about what we could do, together, one day, if and ever we met. It's hard sometimes to imagine that it could ever happen - I mean, hell, it's halfway across the world and y'know it's difficult! ...But I want to believe it can happen. I mean, I couldn't possibly imagine myself with anyone else, ever.
School is being pretty sucky nowadays, I end around evening and it's far too late for Chris to stay up. Thank God for mobile texting, though. I couldn't live without it, now. Although I still find it pretty hard to reply his texts in the middle of the night cause I'm just soooo sleepy after watching Inuyasha (which my parents frown upon, but I don't really care, the characters are just sooo cute)... but I always reply the next morning. xD Sometimes I can't remember if I was just dreaming and if I really got a text or not. XD My memory's too young to go! o.O
Weekends are the life for me now, I guess. ^^ At least until mid-November, when I get my end-of-year holidays! I just can't wait for those. It will be lovely to be able to talk to Chris all day, just be with him. Strange, how much more you appreciate someone after you nearly lose them. And I know for certain that, oh goodness, damn, he's the one I wanna appreciate every second we get together.
Love is just that hard to explain.
AngelRaz · Sun Oct 08, 2006 @ 07:26am · 1 Comments |
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