I feel like everything I say ends up making someone really upset or making myself upset.
At the moment I'm trying my hardest to not cry while my mom is home because I dunno if I would be able to explain to her why I would be crying. Right now I'm getting yelled at, gods knows why, and I'm getting tired of it.
I just hate how everything is going right now. I keep getting these weird pains and there are lots of times I feel sort of short of breath, like a dizzy spell, which I've been getting those a lot lately. I'm also lacking in the sleep department again. I keep making these damn mistakes when I'm typing becuase I keep shaking, I don't know why.
All I know is that I want out of here, I want to cry, I want to burn something, I want to cut something, I want to destroy something, ******** I want to do something other than breathing right now. But I know if I cut myself I'm only going to get sent back to the counceler, Mrs. Fields worries enough about the students without me being in her office holding a scarred arm.
And another thing that's been pissing me off is when people grab me - whether its by my wrist or my shoulder or whatever. DO NOT ******** TOUCH ME UNLESS I SAY YOU CAN GOD DAMMIT!! stressed
I swear the next time Josh touches me I will slap him; and Josh if you read this then be warned: the next time you touch me or grab me I will beat the ******** s**t out of you.
Thanks to all of you who are putting up with me lately like this.. I'm really sorry I'm such a burdon most of the time, I don't mean to be.
 Myth Tariyun · Thu Feb 03, 2005 @ 02:35am · 1 Comments |
