sweatdrop I posted a while ago that i promised Derick that if he cuts himself i will to.. and well he did. So when i was at his place and had the chance i got him to watch me cut myself. I've been thinking of what i would say if it ever happend so i knew what i was doing as well as i took all the precautions it wouldnt be that harmful to me. Strange thing is... i though i would feel bad about cutting myself... and i did somewhat but in a different way. The way Derick took to the cuts was quite dermatic, he tried to take the blade away but i got it back and he didnt try again cuz like i wouldnt let him. I made it clear i was guna do it no matter what so just sit down and enjoy what he has done. He was like.. tramatized really.. didnt speak for atleast 7 minutes afterwords and just stood where he was staring at where i sat when i was there or not. i had to step up and just enbrace him, looked like he was guna pass out... But now i expect he wont ever do it again.. the promise worked without proof i'd actaly do it for 2 weeks if not more. now he knows i am not afraid to do it, which he prolly had high douts about, and wont do it again. It feels good i did this to help someone, i know i did... i can feel it. Though it was stupid people do stupid things to protect someone, eh? Derick and I are pretty close friends now, if not closer then before.. its great 3nodding
 playwithfire · Sun Feb 27, 2005 @ 09:46pm · 0 Comments |
