so kinda screwed up my lovely art piece maybe ill have uber good luck for once and get to go into the contest as one of the 'best 6' and maybe even rank this time. . . .
so, i had left over paint. . . . geoff and rick were causing me mental distress. . . . so i smeared the paint around all over my hands and i put a couple streaks on one side of my face and a giant smear the inside of one of my ankles and then i went to put it on my sketchbook and geoff declared that i am a basket case and that i need to be put in a room with padded walls i wish they would then i could have fun bouncing around all day hey, its the reason why i had a couple of my old matresses on my floor for over a year damn i miss those matresses i even slept on them sometimes it was great i used to roll out of bed onto them and bounce around and yeah my room was cozy back then and i could spend days in my room just get a few bottles of water, the playstation and final fantasy games, and a box of hersheys bars <3 o what i wouldnt give to have it all back like that dude, when i move out, thats so what im gonna do damn i dont want to go to college for any reason other than that every one nowadays pretty much has to i swear id live in a tiny room with a huge window that allows me to look out at trees and the sky and maybe some water if only it were an option
so rick is still such an a** i rarely ever leave my door open when im in my room so he decides hes going to bed and despite that the volume on my computer is quite low as hes walking by he tells me to turn it down or shut my door he goes into his room as im trying to explain to him that it really isnt loud and therefore i dont need to do either and of course hes too busy repeating himself while im trying to explain to actually get the point and so i say its not like he can actually hear it anyways and he gets an attitude about knowing what he can and cant hear and i tell him hes def anyways and yeah
so, the googoo dolls obsession is continuing how come all the pretty band people are always over 30 by the time you hear about them?? why cant people just produce amazing stuff around the age of 20 and instantly be famous?? um, only the really good people. . . . not like that one girl that was like 13 and singing about relationships and stuff as though she were 20 or something uck i hated her. . . . still do but people like the googoo dolls who are pretty and make amazing music <3
so, here i am pretty much getting insomnia from all sorts of things mainly stress partially emoness stress from needing to have finished college apps already, from having to do a latin presentation, from being a massive loser in the scholastics and yet knowing i need a scholarship like nobody's business emoness cuz everyone has been so critical and angry and mean to me lately and cuz ever since that missed appointment with my councelor i havent gone back or even heard anything about it i kinda felt like it was taking a turn for the worse anyways damn lady peel away my thick protective numbing shell and leave me completely bare if people were water and they ever tried to get near me it would be like touching unprotected wires and everyone would get shocked or electricuted or start a fire or something and of course she had switched over to 'lets concentrate on the future' mode where she eventually just began stressing me out even more about college s**t and contributed to the return of my massive emoness that i had started out last year with lucky me im still doing homework, mostly, and havent failed anything that i know of yet. . . .
anywho, time to go load up on melatonin in the hopes that my mind will relax enough for me to sleep. . . .
Unni Ineo · Fri Feb 02, 2007 @ 05:03am · 0 Comments |