Last night I was feeling really depressed and it didn't help that my mom was yelling at me for near an hour and a half. So I eventually just went to take a shower and after I got out I looked at the bottle of Atringent by the sink on the counter and I got curious about what household chemicals are harmful to consume. So I tested the Astringent out - it tasted horrible but it did make me feel a little sick afterwards. Noted I only took about 3 handfulls (if even that much) but I have a weak stomach so it probably wouldn't take much to hospitalize myself or put myself into a coma. Whichever would work best for getting me away from this reality - my grades in school are pretty horrible and my mom is yelling still. Nothing I do seems to draw Andrew closer back - just seems to push him farther. I dunno what I ever did in life to become such the ******** I am but whatever. All it would take is probably a whole down of clorox or something. Don't know don't care - I just want out.
 Myth Tariyun · Mon Mar 07, 2005 @ 09:12pm · 0 Comments |
