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Well, I can't say it is forever... Yet.
I started dating again yesterday night.
with a guy I have known for over a year now.
^^
Some people told me that is is bad to go out with friends. But you know what? you have to be friends before anything. I mean, would you go and pick up some random guy off of the street and tell him you are going to date him. (Maybe Stars would do that, if they found a hot guy on the road xp )
All of my past boyfriends have been a friend of mine first.
Jonathan<3
Jerry<3
Hector</3
and a few others.
all of my relationships so far have ended up in ruins, even though I like staying friends with my Ex's. Some don't like it, or start to act diffrently.
I do admit, when you break up with a guy/girl you lose a part of yourself (Unless you are a heartless pimp)
I have nearly given up on life do to my sadness of losing people that I love/loved. I have done many stupid things that I now think back on and mentally smack myself for. Like, cutting my arms, fainting in the shower and trying to commit suicide.
I am trying to change myself now. I had stopped cutting myself, I don't think Suicide is the answer to lifes toughest questions anymore.
No one should die from simple mistakes/losses. I think, if someone sat them down and talked to them and MADE them listen to themselfs, they would find something wrong with their veiw of life, their view of death and choice.

I know for a fact that life doesn't always feel like it's worth it. But just take a moment to stop and think.
"Do I have someone that will miss me?"
"Will the one out there that was ment for me, now be lonely through life?"
"What will God say when I am in front of him?"
there are so many questions that could be thought of and asked. Suarch for your reason why to live, even if it is for you little brother, Or for your little pet goldfish.
Someone needs you here somewhere.
I know I have many peope that love me.
Reo*
Jonathan
My mama and papa
My entire family
Laura
Amber
myself...

Don't let darkness run your life.

By that I don't mean, Hot Topic. =P I love Hot Topic, and I will probably still dress darkly. but come on, those people that read you by you looks should be forgotten.
By being outgoing, show people you are different!!
Don't be stuck in the croud that does everything Paris Hilton does, or Brittany Spears, Or even Jojo, Ciara, lil' Bow Wow, Ludacris, Eminem, your neihbor, your friend.
Do somethings that are of your own idea. create yourself, not an image of another person.