Today was....was......UGH!!!
Today it was going pretty good except the fact that i was sick, but i still had fun with my friends.
But....HJFLDGHALVJBGDUOWPTYAUFDGJKLGCUOPDGT!!!!! Their was TWO things that just...just.....RUINED IT!!!
1. I have a friend named Andrew, some of you guys that go to my school....you might know him. Well....anyways, we have been friend for a while and then suddenly...i had a crush on him. So i had a crush on him.....um...for a while persay. I don't know HOW long! Anyways, on the day before my birthday.....HE TOLD ME HE LIKED ME! And i was pretty happy. XD But then....as the days went by, we have been talking less then we used too and we don't hang out as we used to. question CONFUSING! Today....i just felt like he was AVOIDING me! i mean, he always walked with us into school, but now he goes off somewhere, God knows WHERE!?! And he usually goes to my locker so we chat, but he doesn't do it anymore. We always talke din homeroom or 7th hour....BUT NOT ANYMORE! Today he COMPLETELY ignored me! I mean, I tried to make a conversation with him, but all he said was "yea" And looekd away. @$$^%#^%&^%$&^#@$ UGH!!!! So FRUSTRATING!!!
And 2. Oh my goodness! This is the WORST! Well....I don't know which one is worst. But....My parents are talking about moving to Florida! FLORIDA FOR CRYING OUT LOUD! And sorry for people who love Florida or live there....but i don't WANT to move there! I want to stay HERE! WITH MY FRIENDS DAMN IT!! I mean... My friends are my LIFE! I love them and care for them SOOOOOOO much! And they are a PART of me! And if i move, I lose a part of me. (Just like how my friends somehow for some reason ignores me *coughs coughs*) Anyways, My mom says that i would like it in Florida. And I said, No! I wont! And she said that i would be able to be "Happy" And I said, No! I wont! And she said i will be able to make new friends. And I said, No! I WONT! And she said, "But why?" And I said, BECAUSE! i don't WANT to make new friends. I like my friends HERE! I am sooooo different from them! HERE! they are like ME! And i wont be able to make friend like THEM! And guys, i started to CRY! LITERALLY! I don't want to move! ******** FLORIDA! I'M STAYING HERE WHEATHER MY PARENTS LIKE IT OR NOT! I don't want to move, i planned my life HERE! I don't want to replan it AGAIN! I just.....don't want to move. Why can't my parents understand that if i leave here....i would never be the same, and...i swear by the HOLY BIBLE OF HOLINESS I WILL KILL MYSELF ONE DAY IF WE ARE IN FLORIDA! I swear.
So that is why my day SUCKED today. And i created this because...i always wright poems of my feelings. XD
Life without the ones you love
Life
we have 100 years to live through it
So make it worth your time
But how can you enjoy it if you are
taken from the things you love?
You begin to cry like you have never
cried before
you will never stop till you run out of water to tear up.
everyday you eyes would be red and puffy.
That is what it's like.
You begin to feel your heart become
a wrech.
Something that you never knew.
You feel emptiness consume you there
and you know you can't get better
That is what it's like.
You start to quit the hobbies
tha tyou do our do something fun.
Because you have lost your happiness.
you go outside less
Eat less
Sleep less
That is what it's like.
You begin to feel life is not
worth living for.
And you begin to feel that you want to
cut it short
No one would miss you.
You were taken, so they wouldn't know if you were dead ot alive.
That is what it's like.
Life without the ones you love is
the possible worst thing that could happen.
Because without it, you have lost a part of you.
 -StaarShinee- · Tue Mar 27, 2007 @ 12:27am · 6 Comments |
Walls around my heart that can't be knocked down by force, but of pure love.
You Are A Symphony Of Stardust....
