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Another long journal entry. I really wish I'd get more comments on these. o___o I need the publicity, you know? &.&; My sincere thoughts on the world and life are as follows:
I HATE YOU! The lot of you, every last one of you. I wish you'd all die a horridly morbid and painful death. ..Sorry. Bipolar ness. I had to burst out, since nothing else will help..I mean, Who cares anyway? We all have our insane moments. My eyes hurt from this screen, and I wish it wasn't so hot in this house. I don't get it. Turn the fricken heat off. I would if I wasn't so lazy. To the point. I wish the world would shut up. Just..shut up. I want to yell that one time. And the whole world would just quiet down..not silent..just quiet. Quiet enough for me. One day without a bombing, or a death or anything. Just..peace and quiet. I could sit and listen to my own thoughs instead of those that belong to some politicion from Iraq..or Anna Nicoles family. It just needs to be quiet..The world needs to shut up. Stop worrying, stop fighting, just...stop. Only once...and thatt'd be enough. But no. Humans can't be quiet. Humans can't sit still other than long enough to watch the superbowl. We can't stop going. It's what keeps us alive. Movement. Talking...sounds. I could live without it all. [Maybe not music] To just sit and hear nothing, but understand everything. That would be lovely in my opinion. Just grand.
Nevertheless, war. War needs to stop. I hate it. I just hate fighting. I do not fight. I will not fight another girl at school. I will not join the army. Death does not phase me, but I can't handle fighting. It makes me want to scream and on occasions, I have. Just to let the stress out, just to escape for a minute. ...Why, you ask? Because everyone needs time. Just a moment, but it will be enough. You know what I mean? You need to let it all out one time or another. Too much stress can cause you to do something drastic..and we don't need anymore drama in the world. No more drama...is it even possible to do? Then what would the world be? An empty wasteland of happy people, doing their normal things? That wouldn't be good either. It's..There is just to much. Earth, you need to tone it down. Stop fighting. Just shut up for a day...Please. That is the only thing I long for in life. For the wars to stop, for people to stop fighting. Even for one day..Just, stop. Please. Please, earth. Just stop. Thank you. But you can't! You can't stop. It won't happen in my generation, will it? Maybe not. No. It won't. Thats a million to one odd. It won't happen and the world will wither away, blown apart by nukes or something. We'll all die before it will end. Maybe once humans learn their lesson that fighting solves nothing..just maybe.
I CANT GET RID OF THIS COUGH! Its drivin me insane. My chest feels like it's going to fall apart...I have gym tomorrow. Great. D:& Leasts its only weights.. I was crying earlier. I had a little break down for nothing. I'm not sure why. It's strange. Maybe I'm bipolar. I hate you, Erica. I really do. So don't 'Ja T'aime' me. Oh, yeah. It's 'Ja' I looked it up, ho. I'm so sick of getting hit around and called 'fat' why don't I just go anorexic or something? 1. Thats stupid. 2. Food is my friend. 3. FOOOODSZZZZSFAL::::..&.& I phail. xD Anyway. All of you, just stop hitting me. I have a fricken buise on my back the size of texas and my back is numb. My older sister was like 'We should press charges or something.' I couldn't. You guys are my friends, but stop it. Just stop.. I'm sick of you all. Everyong in the nation. Kids that call me 'Cool'. I'm not. So stop. You know it. I know it. I'm not cool. I...That is the emo in me talking. disreguard it. I just hate false flattery. I can pick it out easily..and I know. You do it to me, you lose my respect. I don't want you to be my friend because you are sorry for me. I want friends that love me..Not ones that talk about me behind me back..and stuff.
I haven't found that yet.
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EDIT! JA T'AIME RIGGS! JA T'AIME! <3 -Sob, sob.-
 fauney · Wed Mar 28, 2007 @ 02:07am · 3 Comments |
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