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Why, cruel world? WHY!?
Okay, I am just really mad at...a lot of people right now. First at my step-dad. No, scratch that--he's not my step-dad; he's a drunk lunatic who I ask, "What're you doing?"
"Drinking."
"Why are you drinking?"
"To forget."
"What do you want to forget?"
"That I'm ashamed."
"What are you ashamed of?"
"OF DRINKING!"
Okay, so this conversation didn't really exist between us, but it did in The LIttle Prince and I thought it defined how stupid he is in many ways.
So it's not safe to go into my own house anymore. Great. What next? I've been living at my grandmother's crooked, 30-year-old trailer since the begining of February. My mom, who never asks my brother and I our opinion of anything, is thinking about going to North Carolina for the entire summer. Yes, I do love North Carolina, but there are many things I have planned for the summer--a lot of good things, too. I'm going to see the Blue Men June 9th (hoo-RAH!), my friend's probably having a birthday party around that time (I usually miss her parties, so I promised her I wouldn't miss it this time) and my friends Kino and Panda are organizing a whole Genshiken club where we'll cosplay and do a whole lot of stupid fun crap that I like to do.
Doesn't sound too agonizing, right? No. Barely. Now listen to this: my mom isn't even asking our opinion. She's thinking about staying there not for the summer but FOR LIFE. I told her I wanted to move there, but she obviously didn't get the point--I wanted to move there when I was old enough to move there by myself. No matter how many times I tell her, "Mom, I have friends here in Florida. I don't want to move." She'll just go, "Oh! That's alright. You'll make new ones."
Do you KNOW how many times I've heard that!? She acts as if my friends are some kind of play toys that I play with, wear down, and throw away to make way for new ones. NOOOOO! That's not how friendship comes about. Friendship is vital--we all need friendship. We can't expect to keep making newer ones and forget the old ones and never see good friends ever again in life! I'm really scared that this will happen...I don't want to lose my friends...
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