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Anyone ever been in love? It's wonderful at first, then it's your worst nightmare. Unless of course your lucky enough and found someone to share it with and will stand by your side. For me love has been beautiful and the most painful thing I have ever felt. Ever fall for someone who then hurt you and for some damn reason beyond your understanding you still have feelings for them? Yeah well I'm in that boat. I go back and forth in not caring at all about what happened, and finding myself hopelessly depressed and down just wishing that one day I might be able to feel the warms of his lips again. The last kiss we had together was so deep and so sweet. It really was like a goodbye kiss, though I didn't know it. I have even found myself saying that I would wait a life time just for one more kiss.

Admittedly I have been around the block a few times and I'm beginning to realize that every single one of my relationships are either strictly sexual, or the guy is one step away from creepy stalker and worships my every step and as nice as that sounds it gets very old, very fast. My heart has been stolen and crushed over and over, more times than I can even count. There isn't much left anymore, I now have to be careful of who I give my last bits to. It will be gone soon. I want to be over him, I want to fall in love with someone else, to bad you can't always get what you want...