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I am absolutley head over heels in love with XxJayrah HutchinsxX!

Sarah!
17!
Engaged!
Loves God!
Loves Jay!

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My life has gradually came together through out the past year, I used to never give a crap about anything. Life was basically worthless because all I ever seen in anyone was fake, it was never really there. What was there was pain, heartbreak & agony. I must say I do blame myself not others for the way I used to fake a smile, but cry all night over the littlest most pointless things in life. So what, A guy said a mean thing, So what I've made mistakes yeah, but that's not how I took it. I brought things against myself, and did things I regret. I would have sex to cover up the pain, which in all honesty, It made my emotional pain even worse. I can't change my past, but in Gods eyes. I can become a new person. I'm forgiven, and its still hard to this day to bear with myself everyday, people will judge me until the very day a die. & that hurts, but i don't let others get to me & I could careless what they think because they don't know me. & Have no right to judge me. Last year, in Sept I finally met the guy of my dreams. We knew each other before that, but never met yet, me & him are now engaged and he makes me the happiest I've ever been. I'm going to marry him one day. Hes deffiently made my life whole, hes the one who keeps me sane. Our relationship has made all the differences in me. Our relationship is so strong towards one another. Through God, we will make it through anything together. Hes the reason why I don't cry anymore over my past, why im not insecure, why i don't look at life as nothing. I must say I do still have major trust issues though, b/c everyone I trusted let me down, but when I met Jay he never befouled my trust, hes always been honest with me, and has never once lied to me. He has made my life come together. My love for him is like a never ending flame. I desire to be with him for as long as I live, I wish others seen the marvelous love we have for one another, and how strong our love is, that our lives together will be wonderful no matter what b/c we have God & each other. One day I will marry that boy, and who ever doesn't like it won't be there. It's our day, our life, no one else & we will make our own decisions together in life. Nobody could ever separate the power of God, and the power of love from us. I believe that yes, the good Lord did send me Jay because who knows if I wouldn't have met him I may have never seen the change in my life. The good in life, but with Jay. I see everything perfectly, and with good cause. Even in the bad, God gives me the strength to get through, and has Jay to help me stay strong too. My life deffiently has been different since I've gotten with Jay. I may say it's not perfect, but nothing perfect, and what I have now is as close to perfect as I want to get. I love my life, and I couldn't thank God enough for all the great things he has, and will do for me in my life!