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Last night was the most...odd.
I...I...was confused.
I had so many old feelings come back, and then NEW ones emerged.
Oh god.
Why the hell is everything so difficult in life?
Jeez.
>.<
Hm.
I felt happy, and...ecstatic...but at the same time hurt and...suicidal.
For no reason.

What confused me the most was when he stayed /on/ past nine and...was just listening.
He risked getting in trouble with his parents...so he hid the phone from them...just to listen to me babble...
He's never done /that/ before.

I was happy when he was. His laughter kept me in good spirits.

I was pissed when I found out he...thought of me that way...because he's never shown it. And I wish he would...but he confessed last night to 'feeling' that way.

Hm.
I'm just...trapped in my mind.
Hell...