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God,
I pray that everything will be ok. I pray for eveyone in the world... I try. I can't deal with everyone and I sorry. I don't understand... perhaps no one is suppose to. I sit here, I do the best I can for everyone I know. I can't help eveyone. I feel like for a long time I put everyone first. Just until recently I did very little for my own comfort. Still when I say its my turn people continue to pull me into... all of this stuff I thought I was finally away from. Some much is going on with my family. I pray for them, I pray that my aunt will finally find peace with her medical situation, maybe someone can help her. I pray for the situation at SRS for my father. Not for my benefit but for my brothers and my mother. I pray one day I can be successful enough in my medicine to help others... I don't have everything planned out but I know that everything with work out... some how. So please... Just let me have a little time to focus. I've been told I excommunicate and I'm a b***h... But do these people realize? Realize who I am and what I've seen. No one but you can judge me or fully understand me. I'm sorry for all the drama thats happen lately but I'm trying to fix it. I'm trying to be better but I can with all these people traveling on my heels with who I was and what I've done. How am I suppose to get better if no one ever forgive things. Or the fact that I need sometime away from these people. I've alwayz been together. I've alwayz been the one people call and I've rarely said a word. I need to be me and I'm sorry some people aren't in my life anymore, but I have my reasons they know nothing about...
Amen

Love alwayz,
Mary