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I'm just thinking about life. There are no rules to living it. You choose to live your life the way you want to live it. ( smile isn't that great? ). You have complete freedom. Do whatever you want.

I'm just thinking about my problems. But then I realize, my problems are so little compared to other people's problems. But I can't help worrying. Everything is a choice, though. Even worrying is a choice.

I'm just thinking about God. Is there really one? The idea of God is very beautiful. Someone you can talk to, etc. etc. But, then there's God who make things happen, like divorce..poverty..horrible deaths.

I'm just thinking about fears. Why everyone's got one. I guess fear is a sign of intelligence. I guess fear is something we all must have. But need to be controlled.

I'm thinking about rejection. How it makes me feel scared. I don't get hurt from rejection, just scared. Yeah. And panicky, and anxious.

I'm just thinking about people. How they seem so alien. Yet when i think about it, they're no different than me, in terms of emotions and spirit.

I'm just thinking of family. How I thought of the ideal family, and when I didn't see it in my own, I got hurt. Coz I had expectations. Unreasonable expectations. Horrible what t.v. can do to your life.

I'm just thinking about this saying: 'Surround yourself with positive people.' Prob is I have never met a positive person other than my brother, and he and I not close.

I'm just thinking about my life. How it sucks. But doesn't a million other lives suck? I'm just thinking I'm not alone. People share the same fears, discouragements, all the same ol' 's**t'. Gives me a warm feeling inside.

I'm just thinking: Are you happy? And must it matter if you're happy or not? Let me direct the question to myself. Am I happy? I feel neutral, neither happy nor sad.

I'm just thinking, why do boys need sex so much so than girls?? I don't get it.

I'm just thinking, why do people get themselves pregnant?? I don't get it.

I'm just wondering, if I had a dad growing up, would my life be much better?

I'm just thinking, I feel the unfair reality closing down on me, but hey, doesn't everyone?

I'm just thinking, if life is rainbows, flowers, butterflies, birds, meadows, valleys, would I be happier? I doubt it. (Who wants that?) I'm happier right now.

I'm just thinking, if I disagree with somebody, that doesn't make be a bad person.