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	Dive into the Heart...
	Dive into the Heart...

	Can this get any worse...
	Can this get any worse...


Well I feel like life really hates me now...I was just told today that my grandfather is in the hospital sick with lung cancer and is coughing up blood... He's had cancer before in the thyroid (throat area) but that was removed a long time ago but doctors think thats coming back to. The doctors are going to decide on kemo or radiation tomorrow for him...-_- Not only that but my mom isn't doing very well either. She's so sick now a'days and can't even see anymore, she has to strain her eyes in order just to get home safely from work. I'm so scared every time the phone rings I'm afraid its someone calling to tell me my mom got into an accident or something..... I'm even afraid to be in the car when she is. My mom's also been pretty drained because my sisters wedding. My sister can't find a good paying job where she's at so she can't pay the car / phone bills and so my moms been trying to pay that PLUS help pay for the wedding....all she complains about these days is how much my dad keeps spending and how much he pt us in debt. She's also......be talking kind of ...suicidal. Asking me if I want her to "leave" or tells me she just wishes she would die sometimes....it's scaring me. My parents just got into a really big fight last night (about money...like usual) and I hate it when that happens I honestly wish I could just leave this place and go somewhere where I could be happy cause this place isn't...anyone got a spare room I could use...I'm even pretty good with closets.. n_n;;;; It's times like these i actually wish I had a boyfriend....;-; I'll probably wright this out better later on but right now I'm just to.....meh. I dunno but yea I'll just leave it at that. Oh forgot to add if I snap or get mad at anyone this is probably why...sry I don't mean to... Forget all this. I don't want people to sympathize me. You'll just comment it saying how sorry you are to hear about my problems then you'll forget about it the next day...so whats the point in posting stuff like this up here. Reality full of all kinds of crap.....so what...life moves on. Ahkrin · Thu Jun 28, 2007 @ 09:30pm · 4 Comments


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Awaking Memory
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Thu Jun 28, 2007 @ 09:35pm

Whoa, I feel your pain. My granparents have already died so I know how it feels to worry and and be scared of death. And my mom is kinda the same as yours cause she worries about that crap too....Like whoa....

V-Primo
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Fri Jun 29, 2007 @ 09:57pm

Woah easy there. First off I am going to say that I am very deeply sorry to hear this about your grandfather. I hope you don't lose him like I lost both my grandparents. And I'm sorry to hear that your mom is in bad condition again. All my mom does is argue with my stepdad about him spending money and with my aunt about the stuff in this house. My stepdad may get paid good because he's a truck driver but a lot of that gets taken out in taxes also or goes towards his truck that he pays for. Forget it, I don't even want you to give me the 2.50 anymore. Just keep it. Its ok. And I say just stay by your mom's side so she doesn't decide to take her life. Everyone has someone important to them in their life that they will stay alive for. As for the whole boyfriend thing, I think a friend is better than a boyfriend/girlfriend on count of they won't try to take advantage of the situation of how it is. A real friend will try to cheer you up and/or feel your pain. Oh if you ever need a place to stay, got an extra room here where I live if you need or if you need to talk to me, just call 435-3264 and ask for shawn, saying its one of his friends

Lycoris Melas Oneiros
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Mon Jul 09, 2007 @ 01:44am

Hey, anytime you need to get away, you can go to Corn's, me or Susan's house.
I really feel for you, with your parents fighting...my parents have fought my whole life... mostly about money. Its actually been better since my dad left...I'm still furious at him though. I hope your family's money problems get worked out though, and I hope your grandfather gets better...

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Wed Aug 15, 2007 @ 04:14am

No I never forget about my friends' problems. The closer I am with one of my friends, the more I know about them and the more I won't forget. There is a lot of secrets I could tell about my friends that I don't. I would correct Lycoris's places to go to but mines too far away. Of course no one would find you where I live ninja

Then it would seem like I kidnapped you then sweatdrop

Oh well, like I said, if you need anyone to talk to, I am usually on my computer and my cell is ALMOST always on. Anyone that corrects my grammar will be punished btw twisted

And yea, I've never ran into financial problems, my gram did after my pap passed away so I don't really remember it much because she was struggling but not like 'oh crap, we have to sell this and this' struggling. I would help with financial problems but that can't be after until I get a good paying job.

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