~Frank's P.O.V.~
I was kind of out of it after Gerard had mentioned boh my parents and Roxxanne this morning. Then when he tried appologizing for it something in my head just snapped. The worst part was I had no idea why it was like my mind wanted it but my heart said other wise, but my body went with my mind.
"Look man I'm really sorry what I did to you earlier by mention your parents and Roxx like I did. I'm really sorry." Gerard said. I kind of stayed quiet for a minute or two.
"No! You're not sorry! You're just thinking about how lucky I am to not have any parents on your back about everything you do and you think I'm a ******** retard for complaining about not having any! Well when your parents aren't around anymore to get on your back about not cleaning your room or not doing your chores or not having a place of you're own or whatever don't come complaining to me about it 'cause I'm not going to listen to your s**t! I'm leaving." I half yelled and was half in tears. I walked down the stairs to the front of the diner.
"Well then what the hell am I suposed to do about January she only talks and clings to you!" He yelled back at me. I had absolutely no idea what I was saying or even why I was saying it at all.
" I don't ******** care. I could care less if you killed her, stuffed her in a bag and threw her into a frikkin' river." I said giving him the money I had for January. I hadn't meant any of it I would never wish that for her. I wanted to go back and appologize for everything,but my mind had complete control over my body and wouldn't let me. Then I said something that shocked even me.
"If you need me you'll find me in an aleey with Mike Jayson and Aiden" Then I flipped him, and whoever else was outside in the vacinity with him, off. I felt horrible, but something in my head made me do it and I could feel this anger growing stronger in my gut. It was horrible.
I had finally found Aiden, the ring leader, and his two cronies. They had four cases of beer on a trash can with broken bottles scattered across the floor and an a** load of heroine. I felt like doing what I was about to do could really help, but all I realy wanted was a buz from that amber liquid they had with them.
"Hey! Frankie! Long time no see man!" Aiden called from the floor leaning against the wall. I could already tell he was wasted and almost to the point where he needed help.
"You gonna actually hang this time and get wasted with us. Or are you gonna be a pansy and run to that f** Gerard and the rest of those dykes like last time?" Mike asked he had barely begun anything judging by the way he talked. He actually seemed normal for once. I nodded.
"No questions as usual and yea I'm staying until I can't hold no more that's for sure." Aiden smiled a drunken smile and Mike raised an open beer to me. I took it and downed half the bottle. The liquid burned the back of my throat, but eventually I ignored it and just enjoyed the feeling I was getting. I finally didn't have to care for a while.
'What the hell am I doing? I haven't done anything like this in years.' I asked myself. Then Aiden and I started talking. I remembered most of the conversation.
"Dude.... I swear that rat thingy*hiccup* ... was friggin pink. It looked like a chipped mouse....*hiccup*" Aiden said to me. I laughed half consciously.
"Naaaaw dude I think it was a blockish color.....*hiccup* and who the hell's ever heard of a chiped mouse.... it had to be a snow fairy from teddy bear land!" I can remeber saying laughing again and then swinging my beer bottle around. Aiden coughed and spit up some beer he was about to swallow. After that I blacked out and couldn't remeber the rest.
~Gerard's P.O.V.~
After Mikey, Bert, Ray, Quinn, and Bob left the diner Lindsay, Della, Lauren, Kaitlin and I left taking January shopping for clothes. I couldn't help, but worry about Frank the entire time and it was really bringing me down. He was my best friend and he was probably getting into so much trouble right now. I felt bad because it was partly my fault that he went to THOSE b*****d's.
I watched as January came out of the dressing rooms of the stores we went to. She didn't look like she was having much fun like should would if Frank was there, but she did pick out some really nice clothes. For only having a speaking level of four she has very good fashion taste like she was a fashion designer or a model. She was pretty, skinny, and kind of on the short side to be a model.
She seemed to be having a good time that is until she saw how upset I was.
"Gerardway still friend?" January asked sitting next to me, back in Frank's clothes.
"Yea. Why wouldn't I still be your friend?" I wasn't sure why she was asking me this, but she looked like she was about to cry.
"What's wrong January?" I asked as a single tear fell from her crimson eyes. She clenched her fists and gritted her teeth and then let go. She let out a breath ad started talking again.
"I ear things. I ear you mouth Frankiero ******** not care. Not care if January still as still. He is like THEY," She said and then started crying a little bit with even more tears rowling down her beautiful, pale cheeks. I hugged her as she started talking again.
"January loved Frankiero... but Frankiero not loved January..." She finished. I smiled a little bit, but I felt really bad for her.
"Well, if it helps.. I love you January. I love you like a younger sister" She looked up at me and smiled slightly.
"Mine brother!" She hugged me back kissing me on the cheek. I blushed slightly.
"Thank you..." I said she turned red and nodded. Then she leaned her head into my shoulder.
"Thank you Gerardway." I nodded. January was so sweet and Frankie had no right to say those things about her. I felt bad for her too because Frankie had just completely crushed her, I could tell by the way she acted. I, on the other hand, was worried upset and angry at the same time. She was starting to feel the same way as the day grew longer.
When we were half way done with January she started getting tired and we went back to Kaitlin's appartment. We started started watching movies there as well. January seemed to be very interested with The Nightmare Before Christmas. She got scared at some parts and hid her head into my shoulder and would peek out when it was over with.
Suddenly my phone started ringing and we paused the movie.
~Convo~
gerard: Hello?
mikey: we found him.
gerard:where?! is he hurt?! is he ok?! Anything?!
mikey: no. just really drunk. we found him in an alley 4 blocks from the jersey shore.
gerard:good try to get him sober and we'll see you tomorrow. we're gonna stay at Kaitie's tonight. * I could hear Frankie in the back cursing and tralking and falling over himself*
mikey: ok, bye.
~End Convo~
The girls kept asking what was hapening while I was on the phone. January just sat quietly knowing that it was about Frank. She made it look like she was just sitting in total oblivion, but I could she wasn't.
"January..." She looked at me and smiled.
"Yes, mine brother?" January said happily.
"Mikey found frankie..." Her face softened then she looked out the window that was next to the tv. She then lloked at me confused. She wasn't sure who Mikey was yet. Then January lit up.
"Ah... Pretty Eyes!" I nodded smiling at her excitement.
"Yes! He found Frank... Would you like to see him tomorroe?" When I said that she sat pretzle style, crossed her arms, shut her eyes and shook her head.
"NO! Frankiero not ******** care... January not ******** care..." I laughed at how she said ******** so many times and stayed so serious.
"No sillies! No funny mouthings!" She said angerly. I shook my head.
"No I'm not laughing at you being mad at Frank, but you shouldn't say ******** or anything to do with ********. It's not a nice word to say. And you're too sweet for that." I explained and January just nodded tears about to form in her eyes again. She was still very mad.
"Do you wana stay here for tonight with Kaitie?" Kaitlin showed up behind me to see what January's answer would be. January nodded again.
"Mine brother stay with January?"I looked at Kaitie she nodded and I turned back to January amd nodded to her.
Kaitlin out her hand on my shoulder as I stood up. I loked down at January on the couch.
"I'll stay with you January no matter what I promise... and I don't go back on my word." I said sticking out my hand for her to shake it. January took it and we shook hands.
That night January slept on the couch and I slept on the floor beside her. During the night January layed next to me. She seemed scared about somethign.
"I had a night seeing... I sleep with mine brother?"
'Yea she's definitally scared, but what about?' I asked myself.
"Yea do you want to talk about it?" I asked as she curled up next to me. I lifted up the covers to let her under with me. She shrugged. I saw a whole buch of scratches and little cuts all over her cheecks, legs and arms as she layed there. I was so confused on what was going on with this girl.
"Just tell me about it. You don't have to be scared because the things you see in nightseeings aren't real." She shook her head gently.
"Nightseeings January eye real as real. THEY hurt January. THEY want January down there." January pointed to the floor. And those scratch marks she had told me she was right about whoever THEY were and that they were real.
Thank you to all who read this( I am so greatful for the few fans that I have), but you guys who do read need to send me more comments on what you think or I might end the series of Frank and January and just keep it for my close friends here at home. Well thank you for those who read again! And finally after so long chapter 4 is up. Sorry that I kept you waiting I had a busy summer this year, but hope fully I can get to chapter 5 faster this time. Oh and you guys should also look for updates on my profile more often so this way no one gets mad at me for not telling them when I actually do post sweatdrop . Enjoy! 3nodding
