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Night has fallen upon the sleepy town. Though my luck has turned in my favor for once, I'm stuck with family and family friends. Ex-boyfriends hang in the midst of my living room, my brother's friends hang with them. Hiding amongst the shadows, I watch, longing to be near and close to them. Alas, their actions and interests don't interest me. Within the near hour, I'll probably meander into the depths of my room, or slink off towards the shower.
My mind wanders though. It's not safe for it to do so. Memories pop up and pain occurs. Thoughts of the past and of how things turned out burn and scar me. I find so many things questionable. What's the point of relationships? True love, friends with benefits, friends, rivals, etc. They hold no true value to the future. In the very end, don't we all end up the same? Alone, and old. But I do wish for my aging to speed up for a little. Two years would be wonderful to add on. 18. It's a strange age.
One that I cannot wait to reach. Out on my own. True loneliness though. College doesn't give much time for a social life, and with a job, that just blocks it out completely. I suppose that's all I have to look forward to huh? Loneliness...