7/22/2007
Memories
Some memories shouldn’t have the right to pop up without you purposely wanting to think about them. I find it hard to keep from thinking about all the stupid things I’ve done. It feels like I can’t breath when the memory replays in my head. I can’t take it, its like a straining in side me. Which is funny because I didn’t feel this pain when I was busy doing the stupid things. Gah! Even know my mind continues to jog around my past, very careful to only get my most embarrassing moments and poke at them until I can’t breath. I don’t know…I guess some things that you have forgotten like to pop up to ground you when you think you are finally happy. It really sucks too.
What’s worse is when you replay the memories and you think of how you could have said something different or how different things could have turned out. I always think about what I could have said or did different to fix so many different events. Gah!!! Some should just have the ability to remember long-term events removed. It only pulls me back from making a future. Whatever, right…
Song I’m Listening To: Salvation
By: Citizen Cope
Mood: Nostalgic…
Aranel Anira Community Member 
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