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nobody hates you hun, you are muchly loved, nobodys against you (except that stupid guild nazi b***h, but i put a cap in her last week).

"YOUR ONCE, TWICE...........THREE TIMES THE PUNKY"

yeah, that was gay, wanna fight about it?

Nobody hates you. *hugs tightly*

Oil your rollercoaster and let it lead you into the sky. heart

You guys are so cute, I love you!!

Well i'm loved on gaia, but IRL it doesn't seem that way.

well, I can honistly say that I love you irl, even if we only know eachother over gaia. You're too nice and cool to be sad. Low self esteem sucks.

Random anicdote about my own battle against low self esteem: well last night I watched mean girls for the first time, and I only got to see the second half because I was studying. I joined my bf and best guy friend watching it in my living room at 9:30 and we all watched it, the males drooling over lindsay lohan in the entire film. I dont mind if my James thinks that some random actress is hot, but I DO mind if she's a twig and he goes on about it around me. It jsut dosn't seem like he can say that I'm sexy and at the same time adhere to the steriotype of female hotness. My guy friend has been in the military for a few months and hasnt had any girls since so he can go on about her, he's too much my brother to tell me I'm hot anyway. But I've always been on the heavy side so I was really hurt when James and he went on about how hot she was, contrary to my arguments that I wasn't personally attracted to her because she was too thin and has a very generic face. Well, this is really long, but I ended up freaking out and crying a lot and reverting back into my self-hatred and thinking that I needed to loose 30lbs to look remotely good.

Every girl goes through low self esteem about her body, I know that your problem stems deeper, but there is help. I dont know if it helps at all, but I'm always here if you want to talk to me on gaia or aim or something. *hugs* I love you, your bf loves you, everyone on gaia loves you, and your irl friends. heart