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I hate highschool. I hate feeling akward. I hate feeling different. I hate models. I hate food. I hate wanting to be something I'm not. I hate trying to fit in. I hate feeling like I'm ignored. I hate feeling like I'm struggling with my life. I hate hating myself. I hate feeling like everyone hates me. I hate feeling like I'll never be accepted. I hate feeling sick to my stomach. I hate wanting to make myself throw up. I hate girls who can eat anything and still stay stick thin. I hate failing my classes. I hate my dad. I hate living with out my dad. I hate living in a broken family. I hate having financial problems. I hate trying to find clothes that fit. I hate being jealous. I hate feeling paranoid. I hate the societies high standards. I hate trying to lose weight. I hate not being able to lose weight. I hate feeling like I'll never be able to lose weight. I hate feeling hopeless about myself. I hate crying. I hate feeling like part of a freakshow. I hate caring about what other people think. I hate expensive designer clothes. I hate feeling like I'm part of another world. I hate feeling like I'm on the outside. I hate secrets. I hate people who talk about you in front of you. I hate people who hate you for no reason. I hate people who look down on you because you're not just like them. I hate me.

Because of you, I hate me.