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"Well, I am feeling quite foolish now, seeing as the one I thought I would be with pretty much ditched me... Pretty much, I will keep it there, as a memory, but other than that, I do not think I can follow anything I stated in that, seeing as I am not in relations with her in that way... In fact, I have begun to show interest in someone already.. Is that wrong...? Should I really be able to let my heart move on when it's only been a few weeks since it was so set on another...? I feel as if I want to completely let go of her... yet at the same time, something is telling me to wait a while, and try to stay... Though I believe more firmly in the first, the second is a bit more complicated... She's not going to break up with him for me... Because of the mistakes I made in previous years, i really don't deserve her... Typing this has sort of brought out a realization... I shouldn't sit around and do nothing as she lives her life, happy as can be with someone else... I need to... I need to move on... though it hurts noow to say so, It must be done... As soon as a few problems are finished, I can completely move on... Hopefully... For I would enjoy very much seeking a new relationship with one that I know in my heart will stay with me... So this is all dedicated to the death of love, and the hopeful rebirth, and a new start... Hopefully... All I can do is hope... Fate brought us together, And I ripped it apart.... three times... Now, fate has shown me a new path, and I do not plan to stray this time... Well, that is all."