Two years ago i stopped seeing my father, i disowned him because he was an overbaring,conceited,abusive man. He took my mother and i to court for custody 4 times, he lost every time*does victory dance* but ever since the last court decision (that he be completly out of my life) He has been stalking me, he stops me in the streets, calls me and yells. He won't leave me alone he scaresme.... every time i have contact with him, i break down, i even write dark, morbid poetry(yes i am a poet)I always wind up in a state that i justcan't seem tosnap out of. My mom has the worsttaste in men, they have all been abusive assholes, it drove me to become suicidal, looking back on my attempts to kill myself, i am ashamed. I gaveintomy sorrow, it was wrong... i am no longer suicidal as of 2 years now blaugh
My poem iwrote after my father called
tormiled mind
Surrounded by merciless pain
redemption i know not
my aching heart is shown no release
it pounds in my chest
telling me soon it shall explode
in my world, god shows no mecy
satan laughs at my pain
sinless but still punishable
on my hands and knees i pray
i pray for solitude
freedom without chains
love without betrayel
boundaries without walls
light without darkness
whenever i am released into a peaceful state
surrounded by bliss
the sky turns black, the earth turns to ash
a fire filled cavern splits the earth
before me a demon emerges, a terrifying sight
miasma of putrid odour
it sinks its fans into my neck, wrapping its long spiked, bony arms around me
sucking out my blood, squeezing out my life
my vision blurs
my body weakens
it releases and my body falls to the ground
crimson sorrow pours from my neck
slowly i slip into oblivion
darkness engulfs me
i smile to myself
i am finally free
cry i seriously scare myself at times.
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