So where do I begin? These are not really notes, but quick little summaries of what's been up lately. xP
Moma((don't laugh)) drove up and over the curb at the dollar store yesterday. I felt like we were in a wreck, with all the humps and bumps. Later on in the day, my neck started hurting. xD
Ya know, I don't really have a lot of nightmares. but when I do... gonk Last week, I couldn't think of why I kept crossing myself before I fell asleep. Then I had this dream. It was like I was a few blocks away from my house, walking home, just a bit further, when I accidentally swerved into the parking lot of the motel nearby. I felt someone behind me and knew they saw me, and tried to hurry out, but it was too late. It was like I freaked out and started running, away from my house or some unknown reason. I ran into this hospital, and was going through every other room trying to lose them. I distinctly remember ducking through an operating room or two, than stupidly looking back to see if I had lost them ((and check out this doctor O.o)) But it didn't work, and I found myself in this cafeteria of old people, where no one would help me, or even speak to me, except for one lunchlady. All she did was shake her head and look at me, saying she couldn't help. I think I remember even pleading, when they found me. Luckily, it then kind of faded from there and I dreamed about this grocery store and my old friends instead. xD
And finally, I'm coming to a realization. I have very likely just encountered my first love. The circumstances were odd, even stupid, in retrospect, but I've never felt that intensely for anyone. Just because it was my first, doesn't mean I should've put it on a pedestal, I guess, but I was personally attached. I wanted it above anything, but I'm coming to know that that wasn't enough. I know there's more fish in the sea, but I liked how it was. That shouldn't short-sight me though. But it's so hard. Have to let it go though, my head knows, now I'm just waiting for my heart to catch on.
Well, that's it for now. Comment, kids. surprised
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3/19/10
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