"We never really got to express each other’s feelings huh? There was always something that came between us. Which is why I know it won't work anymore. Now that you fully accept her and I have someone behind me, watching and waiting for me I say my good byes... I will always hold a spot for you.
Good bye my love.
D. Suki, Nami"
Nami wrote in her journal, her sad words to her old love, her high school and fist love. She cried softly, tearing the page from it, knowing it was true. Zack and her had never had a good run. They were totally in love with the wrong person at the right time. Not that they had any original problems. Just a mix of emotions, age and a bit of distance mixed in. Okay, so a block away was not so bad. But after a long run and a promise of forever friendship between them, Nami had taken that Night to give in and give up. One last meeting with him. At least, one last meeting as lovers. So she wrote him the note, almost completed she called up Jonathan White. She cleared her voice, in the way she did when she cried so her mother wouldn't hear, or so that people wouldn't worry. And waited.
Riiiiing, riii-
"Nami?" she smiled, Jonathan had been waiting for her call, she told him a good 45 minutes ago she'd call but she didn't think he was that enthusiastic about it. She quietly answered hesitating at first.
"Jay? I'm sorry I took so long. I have an answer." she guessed by what he said next she sounded depressed, she didn't mean to sound pessimistic but of course, it was raging though her blood thanks to the past few nights.
"********... It's okay Nami... I understand that Zack is the only one for you. You two look so good together... But it has been a few weeks so I just-"
She chuckled "No sweetie. I'm not going back to him. Starting the next time we meet... I'll be yours okay?" the other line was silent, she worried. "Jay? John! Jonathan!?" she said worried before she heard him gasp and sob. She then smiled widely. He was a very sensitive man. "I'll meet up with you tomorrow afternoon at your house. Good bye Jay.” He barley was able to say bye before she hung up and dialed Zack’s number.
~*later that evening in her room*~
“I’m sorry to call you to my house I know you have work.” She looked down before hugging Zack; he flushed brightly and rubbed the back of her neck.
N-Nami… I should not be doing this… you know we aren’t together…” She nodded; she looked at the ring on his finger and held back the sobs before kissing him, slipping the note in his pocket. “Just one last time I wanted to taste you. I shall probably never be able to again. Not only for her.” She said lightly before she pushed him though the open door.
“NOW GO!” she said with a sob as she locked her door. She layer in bed rubbing her head on her pillow case, which smelled like him, he slept over so many times. Zack knew that was it. They wouldn’t see each other for a looong time. At least six months.
A knock formed at her door, and Zack's voice answered.
“I’m sorry. Maybe in another life we will be for one another…” she heard his steps walk away and she turned on the radio, the song “I miss you” by Avril Lavine came on. Tears flowed down her face as she called Jonathan again.
Riiingg, riiiing, riin-
“Good evening white residence” He said happily as name sobbed. He stayed quite before asking “Nami?” she sobbed again and nodded, even though he couldn’t see it and she blurted out
“Jay I wanna sleep over… I don’t wanna be home…” without question he made arrangements to pick her up…..
To Be Continued…….
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