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like i said ....i jinxed it.....so far life sux once more....i saw my ex once....we waved that was it...haven't seen much of him...but then again i dont really care.......mean rude maybe,...but im over it.............and um, my dad has left for a funeral becuase of his friend 'Elf' and well, he was a year younger than my dad. So he has left and wont be back until Sunday.

Now for school lets see.......i found out which in a way (i already knew but couldn't actually confirm it )

that i like someone but they have a girl friend and i cannot do anything to disrupt that...but the thing is he brought t up...he wanted a relationship with me as i did him but i stepped down and let my friend go for it..they had more in common with there past yet he said he felt a connection with me and i did too....but i stepped down for my friend....sigh....i..i just dont know what the hell to say or do.....

something tells me i should be with him....but also im confused.....i don't want to be like this.....I'm afraid of relations and im scared one day that we really would break up....i i just don't know what to do....and ever since he started it ad we talked about it....well....i cant seem to get him out of my mind.....hmm,....i wonder if anyone would even bother reading this.........o well.

bye...and if your reading this, the one who im talking about......well..i guess now u know how i feel.....sigh gawd i need a hug.....