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Apparently my dad is going back to being sick from the barometric pressure changes.
For a good while we thought there was a cure, a possibility I held dear..

To find out and cure myself. I'd like to think there is a way we could feel relief.

He said to drink water.. I've tried.. It didn't help me. I don't want to have heightened senses.. its terribly uncomfortable.. Painful.. I cant function.

When it's happening I feel like I could go insane or pass out from the pain.. Through the eyes of people who have witnessed me going through this.. I can only imagine what they are thinking about my reactions to things they cant hear.

The only evidence I have to prove what I am experiencing is real and not manifested by myself, is the fact my dad is going through the same thing at the same time.

There are Ionizers all over my house to try to provide some comfort.. Even that doesn't work at times.. If I'm not in the house when it's happening.. I just want to be put to sleep until it's over.. It's unbearable and has become harder and harder to deal with as I've gotten older.

Yet to explain to someone, especially your boss or teacher, that the reason you are throwing up, having tunnel vision, cant walk a straight line, and cant hear because there are too many sounds vibrating at once.. Is impossible.

I have no idea why we have these symptoms, or what it has to do with the pressure in the atmosphere shifting. There is no name for it to my knowledge.

It's such an absurd thing.. to say to someone you are experiencing this.
I wish for it to stop.. I had one person tell me they knew what I was going through.. and was able to stop it from happening.. but this person, for religious reasons completely despised me.. and I feel over time, was trying to harm me..

There are people who I know I could ask.. I chose not to ask though.. I refuse to see myself as one of them.
I know I'm being vague, but I cant say any more than that so openly. I've had enough pagan fanatics jumping down my throat these seven years. -_-
(Note: All started seven years ago.)