I've been 20 for less than a month, and already I wish I could go back to being about 16. Yeah, I hated high school, but at least I had more time to devote to myself.
In my high school, I seemed to never have homework. It's not because I took all of the easy classes, but because it was high school and I excelled in it. Now I have two papers due the same week in October (nonetheless, only 1 day apart). One is for science fiction (4-5 pages) and the other is for film (on a movie I haven't seen yet and it's 2-3 pages). Yeah, it's not those fabled ten pagers that you see getting assigned in movies, but it's still work to get a paper out in two weeks.
I also have less freedom when it comes to being single. Yeah, I don't mind it all of the time, but I find it cumbersome when I just want to be alone because I'm antisocial. True, he picks me up when I'm down heart and I love him beyond belief, but there are times when I'd rather be single again.
I'm also terrified of the future. I have all of these stupid "what if's" in my head that don't go away no matter what I do! What if I can't get a decent job after college? What if me and Robert broke up? What if, what if, what if??????
I'm so stressed out that even this hypnotism CD I bought isn't helping me!! I'm past my breaking point... I'm just waiting for my spirit to break until I'm nothing but an empty shell.
 Earths_Eclipse · Tue Oct 02, 2007 @ 12:26am · 0 Comments |
