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Sean was just another guy I sappose... a friend at first. I knew him from the parties but we never realy talked. I kept most of myself hidden, the truth was soething I kept secreatly tucked away, so no one would ever find out about my curse. Atleast I considered it a curse for the most part. Ever since I can remember, I had visions, seeing things that weren't real as far as I could tell...that is, untill the visions started comeing true. In the fourth grade, I was enjoying my lunch break when I was struck down by a vision, all the others thought I had been hit by some kinda ball or something, rushing over to see if I was all right. I wasn't. The vision had been of my oldest sister beeing killed. I walked home from school.. many miles away, when asked why I had left school, I told the truth. They didn't belive me and so I lied. They belived the lie above the truth. It was a lesson that people are not up to the truth. Years taught me that things are not so easy, not so black and white.
Now we come to the present, so much has happened in my past, much that made me into the person I am, but things that must remain for the time being, in the shadows. I was almost thirty when I meet Sean. He was a guest, someone that someone else had invited. Even tho Ihad never seen him before, I had a sence that he woud make waves in my life, just not how far those waves would crash. Sean was just another guy, blond hair that was kept short. His eyes were blue, but not just your adverage blue, but a viberant blue that just made my knees mealt beneath me. After so many years, I had learnt how to keep my inner feelings from seeping out.
He had a rugged face, the kind that just screams heart throb. I loved it when he laughed or even smiled. I never realy talked much to him at the first few parties, my way was not so open. Everyone knew that I was bi, the guys did thier best tot ry and keep thier fears of me secreat, I didn't let on that I knew. Besides being a oracle, being able to see visions of thigns that haven't happened yet, I also have a slight ability to sense emotions of the people around me. The ladies, they knew that I liked guys, to them, I was someone safe to be around, soeone who wouldn't try and get into thier pants. Many even takeing and talking thier secreats to in private. I was split, my ease at talking with the gals made me someone to be feared for the guys. Sean was surprised when I gave him a gift, a sword from my collection.
After the night had fallen, as most fled to thier respectave homes and beds... I had a vision, a vision that let me see two paths before me. One path, led me to that wich I secreatly desired, a night with Sean in my arms. The other, a close call with death. Those who know me, know that death dosn't scare me.I could have stayed, spent the night in the house with Sean. Instead I walked home, haveing a to close of a call with a truck on the walk. The trucks side mirror clipped my shoulder, the driver, haveing seen me, made sure that I was hit, perhaps hopeing for more than just clipping me. I nade it home only to have to walk back because I had something that someone needed badly. When they found out that I had such a close call, they were so mad at me for risking my life. If only they knew just what I had given up.
Nearly a month past, rarely haveing much contact with Sean, then he came to see me at my new place. I coud tell that he wanted to ask me something, but not sure what. As we walked to the house, we talked abit. He was hopeing that I would let him have another sword to play with, aswell as begging me to "play nice" with some of his friends that he had brought over. I did as he asked, keeping my true self once more hidden, even from him. It was a few nights later that I saw the vision of what could happen between us. I was torn, should I take the risk, see how the vision would turn out? Or would there be to much risk of loseing the friendship we allready shared? I would have to wait, the next time we met, I would see what I could feel from him, see what might be between us