Ok it really annoys me about how people can put their life on the line for online love.
I have never had an online boyfriend, i never want one because its all going to end the same way.
I am a cheery, bright person who helps people with their problems.
Having saved someone from self-mutilation last year, and now having them as the best friend i have ever had sure has payed off.
Then why can't i give advice to Tyler?!? I feel guilty for even asking him to come to me instead of Lisa.WHY must internet friendships be so COMPLEX!?
I love my friends, my online ones, they keep me up all night laughing, they make drinking coke by monitor light romantic, they have personalities that are wonderful.
Yet when they get really upset, i love it when they come to me. Spending hours telling them things they already know, reciting things i have heard from a poem and such. Telling them to stop hurting themselves ( and although i really want to say what i think i don't) I have to always act so positive.
Oh yes, bright day for all! It helps me forget my problems which don't really matter to me anyway because i learnt long ago that if i did hurt myself, i would be feeling rather...dumb.What can a problem do to me, it helps me know what my friends are going through,falling out helps me rebuild a friendship.
But i know nothing about online love, except that it all ends in tears like any relationship and that those who hurt themselves because of it, well but it nicely,should really learn that ending a relationship is helpful, because it can teach people about how much it hurts.
I personally think that if you want a relationship you need good friends who give good advice and you need to learn its not the end of the world if it all goes wrong because like many things, it will go wrong at some point and having seen my probbly only real life friends dad walk out on them and having him only chat to her and ignoring her sister makes me want to get a knife out and kill him.It has also helped me realise that everything is ******** in life, even a rich man can become a poor man, the prettiest smartest woman become dumb and plain.
Now i have her coming to me for help and i have to give her advice,which if it doesnt go right i will feel extreme guilt and how do i cheer her up?
Iplay a computor game with her for hours on end followed by playing dolls which can be rather funny since i find them fascinating.
People think i am weird and yet if they gave me a chance i would pull the knife away from them and hug them.
I have no idea what i was putting here, i do have an idea but i have to put it somewhere, it can;t stay in my mind forever.
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