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My ex
This has been bugging me for awhile. I hate him so badly! I think you all know who Im talking about. Corey. Corey, the d**k sucking b*****d who thought it was alright to cheat on me by giving oral sex to another man, and saying it wasnt cheating at all, since he was bisexual. My friends, they dont support me at all with him. They say I should forgive him and its not really considered cheating. No, its much worse. I hate him, and some how, that hatred continues to grow more and more each day. I find myself thinking about ways to hurt him like he did me. To humiliate him like how he did me. I loved him, but all he gave me in return was hurt, and humiliation. I remember the day after I confronted him. He said 'but I love you so much'. Those words hurt me like a knife. He cheated on me. You dont cheat on someone you 'love so much'. Am I wrong for not forgiving him? My friends say I am. I remember the other day, my friend made me cry, because she brought up the subject, and she said 'I dont see whats the big deal. Its not really considered cheating anyway.' Am I wrong for hating him so much? For him two-timing? For having oral sex with someone else? I guess I hate him mostly because he didnt want to do that stuff with me. I loved him so much, and I gave him a lot of freedom. Too much freedom, now that I think about it. I never questioned what he was doing, or who he was with. I didnt think he would do something like that. We hardly ever talked on the phone, and we only saw each other at lunch, practically. We never kissed, or even went out. I always wanted him to make the first move, but he never did. Everyone thought we were a cute couple... And you want to know whats really weird? He wished so much that he was a girl. He was even thinking about having a sex change when he gets older. Huh... But, I have someone new now. Someone to make me happy. His name is Jeramy. Yeah, we might be a few countries apart (Dont judge our long distance love until you see us for yourselves) but, we really connect (No pun intended). Im really glad that I could find someone like him. But, no matter how much I am loved, that hurt is still there. That hate. Another thing is, Adam, the man he cheated on me with, didnt even know I was his girlfriend. Corey should have known better. What was Corey`s excuse? The he was 'tricked into having oral sex'. You dont get tricked into these kinds of things. You either want it, or you get raped. But, I know for sure that Corey wanted it. He didnt make a big deal out of it like he did other things. What do you guys think? Should I hate him, or should I forgive him?
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