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KABALO KA!!!!...
i hate u so much,,, coZ i hate this feeling of mine
maybe it's not u i hate most...but me!!!!...
coZ i can't take this feeling anymore.... crying

before, were just good friends,,,
but as time goes by,,,our atmosphere have changed...
your eyes makes me melt,,,everytime u look at me...and i just can't control it... heart
sometimes we just cross our eyes accidentally,,,
and after that we turned our heads down.... 4laugh
then i notice that u are making your first move to me...
but i never gave my whole attention to u...

then, i notice that u and my bestfriend are so close to each other...
and i admit that i feel jealous... sad
they also pretend that they are bf and gf...just to have fun...
but it hurts me so much,,,seeing them like that!!!! crying
but as i hide this feeling...
my love for him is getting stronger.... heart
they always saw me laughing and smiling....
but deep inside of me my heart was already broken... crying

then one day,,, my friend told me that she loved him....
and it breaks my heart... sad
i wanted to cry,,,but i can't!!!!...
coZ i don't want my friend to see me crying... sad
but as i arrive into my house....my tears run down to my cheeks... crying
i just can't control it... crying crying crying
then i realize,,,that i must stop this feeling....
for the sake of my most beloved friend... sad ...but how?????... question
everyday, me and that guy always see each other...
and as i hide this feeling...it makes me love him more... heart

there are times when i'm down,,,he makes me smile.. 4laugh
he is so sweet and that makes me like him most... 4laugh
how can i stop this????... question
if every aspect i see to him is so cOol... question

but in the end,,, i have nothing to do....
coZ i'm going to get this feeling away...
so that i can make my friend be happy....
even though it hurts me!!!!! crying
i must sacrifice!!!... sad
crying