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Im unsure what to think of all of this ive experienced so far.
I found out that Neko's and Ryu's dark side again went with one another.
Handy, a security system...I mean that sarcasticly.
I forgave her the first time, even though she couldnt help her. That picture, of the security camera's haunted my mind anyway. I thought I could live with it, that I could bear it.
I managed with alot of trouble, and I barely got the grip back on my life, and a second time occurs.
Two pictures in my mind, haunting me. My heart is broken....again.
More pieces this time.
I am not sure if I ever should go with a girl here on gaia again. It seems I have a bad aura for girls on gaia.

Perhaps it is best to stay single, that crossed my mind....but I know that is impossible for someone like me, if I walk away from Kaorinu and or Neko, I fall in love with another without doubt and those memories of the happy times we had together will come back and haunt my mind again.

Neko's dark side asked me to stay with Neko no matter what and said she finally understanded love and such. Me and Shade doubt it.
I really need time to think all of this over really well.....I thought I would leave Neko when her darkside messed with Ryu again, but leaving someone is harder then I imagined. Especially telling someone.

As I said, im going to think all of this over really well and make a decision.
Perhaps I might give Neko her very last chance, perhaps Ill leave her after all....like I said I would.

Shade will have control over my body so my mind and soul can think all of this over without being disturbed by anyone.
If he misbehaves, just order Ryden to bite him....or kick his a** if you prefer.

A little note for Ryu, if he reads this.
Im not sure if you got heard what I said Ryu. But Ill always be your friend.
The only thing I wasnt sure of, is that your darkside is truly history.
Im sorry if I hurted your feelings. Im not feeling that great myself.