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I try to understand these mortals hard but the more I try the easer it is for me to get lost are confused there thinkings are wierd teachings can be wrong but there abillity to learn new things are childis in my mind why as I suffer here my cat and love for one mortal keeps me sane and at bay from killing and sucide I guess love is the only thing to keep hate and pain from attacking but the suffering might never stop it makes me qustion love more everything makes me wonder why I would probely pay my life to be close to my to loves every day but there was a time where I dint want love and nothing to do with it my cat changed me from that for now but why would anyone want to love me sure I may be some what attractive and quiet and hate packs that doesent mean anthing I wonder do I really need love.