My boyfriend's first day of work is today. He was originally scheduled to work today and Saturday. Without even thinking of how I would feel, he said he would work on Friday night too. He was asked, not demanded. Already it feels as though he's putting me in second place... again.
I also yelled at him unnecessarily. Now I'm sitting here at work, eating a bag of Starbursts, praying that there will be some alcohol in some of them so I can get drunk and just forget about everything for a few hours. I'm supposed to be working on homework, but I know if I work on that, I'll get nothing done. I'll just sit there and stare at the blank pages. I won't learn anything.
I specifically told him after he asked me about applying for this job that I didn't want him to take this job because of the odd hours. I have this gut feeling that he isn't going to be able to handle this kind of job. Yes, I have confidence in him, but when it comes to this kind of work, he's not cut out for it. I know he wants to test the waters, but to jeopardize us like this isn't right.
He said he would visit work tonight before he left for his job. It's almost 7 and he isn't here yet. I really pray that I didn't make him mad enough to not even want to see me...
 Earths_Eclipse · Fri Nov 16, 2007 @ 12:44am · 0 Comments |
