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ARGH.
My mind is overflowing so I'm just getting it out so it'll stop.
I'm frustrated at the moment because I spent the hour and a half trying to finish a stage in my game which got really complicated because of the freaking random encounters every 3rd step you take through the level.
And I'm sleep deprived because I keep wanting to do stuff instead of going to bed so I stay up till midnight or later, go to sleep, and then wake up at 5:30~6:00AM to get ready for school.
I dislike my school because I have to spend first period (english) with a bunch of people who do nothing but complain about their work and slack off. That and I see so many people who I hardly get to see and make promises I can't keep to.
I'm way behind in my Chemistry work than I should be.
I left my sketchbook in the Chem Lab.
I have Rinevis's ancient commission I was supposed to do months ago to do.
I can't draw.
I go partially insane when I'm happy.
I'm serious. When I get happy or so, I start doing random crazy things like poke people over and over, unusual comments, act strange. It annoys me.
And I've become antisocial. I don't get on AIM anymore. I hardly post. I can't hold a steady conversation. I sit bored for minutes on end before doing something instead of doing my work.
I don't know how to approach my girlfriend. We've been dating 2 months now and Victoria is telling me to move it up to less shyness and more like a real couple. I'm freaking shy. Infact, I'm not even sure I'm at the level with her that I would even consider such. It's more like friends with a title infront rather than people who love eachother as a couple because we're both too shy and unfeeling.
Sometimes I wake up and wonder how I got where I am and why I'm not somewhere else.
It seems I'm more interested in reading conversation than making it.
K, all vented. Thanks SG.
 Hirun Hikari · Tue Nov 27, 2007 @ 03:40am · 1 Comments |
