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i think casandra is still mad at me.but im glad at least caroline and casandra are talking to me...welll...maybe not talkin talking but you know what i mean hopefully...well...in the comments she posted, the comments were hurtful...i only said all those things that i shouldn't have said because i was reallly mad that she wouldn't forgive me...she doesn't understand how sorry i am. i am really hurt right now. i think i've never been this hurt before. crying i really thought we were friends...maybe i was wrong...maybe my life is still the same...maybe i should wonder...do i even want to live a life?...im so sad. and casandra isn't ugly but that doesn't mean that she can go around telling others that i am copying her style...i was really mad at her... that was all...but now im not mad...im sad... crying my life is breaking down. i feel so confused. i mean she still says hi to me(im so thankful that she still says hi to me) but i really wish she wasn't that mad at me. the secrets she told me especially the ones she recently told me are secretly kept. i didn't tell anyone. i don't care if she trash talks me. i don't care whatever she says about me. i just want to be her best friend again. if i can't be at least her best friend, can't i at least be her friend?
i need advice...what do i do?~
i feel sadder by the moment. crying