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Yes, yet another time-honored tradition of watching a spectacular fireworks display up in the sky, adding one more year to the day the USA declared independence from the UK all those years ago. Well, at least tomorrow anyway.

Anyway, those of you who are just tuning in, I have an announcement.

It's been a long time coming, but sometime in the fall, my mother and I are going on a little trip. However, it will not be to Rhode Island. Where are we going, you ask? Simple. To North Carolina, of course! My mother has a friend of hers that she hasn't seen in like forever is the reason we're going there. Amount of time we're going to be there for is for about two weeks or so.

I guess that's all I can write for now... I got Writer's Block... I'll add more if I can.

July 8 Edit

Well, my ID-4 went over nicely. I eventually got a hold of a friend of mine that I haven't been talking to in some time. She and I just BS'ed for a while.

But that's been the only highlight I've had, besides having a good 4th.

My mother once again pissed me off to the point where I almost wanted to slug her in the face. But, to be honest, I really don't give a flying ********. See, she doesn't know it, but she spouts off like she does, it's usually because she's getting sleepy. However, and like I said, she doesn't know it, but everything mean she says? I take it directly to heart. Believe me, it hurts worse than getting clubbed over the head with a metal baseball bat, seeing your own mother say that kind of jargon directly into your face. She did apologize for her actions, but I accepted it halfheartedly. I know I wouldn't fully forgive her and that's how it's been every goddamn time.

But once again, do I care?

Not the slightest.

But I will tell you one thing, though. When I finally get my license, get a car and get some money into my hands, I'm getting outta this house, this town, this county; hell, even this state... And I'm not turning back for a second.

What began the running was nearly four years ago with Rhode Island and one of these days, it'll end with my mother. I've already severed a lot of ties with family and friends back home, and I'm not afraid to keep cutting. I have given up so much, and yet to some people, it seems like it's not enough.

Nothing's ever enough. Even to myself.

So that leads me to a question I gotta ask myself... Am I a mistake?

The answer is up to anyone that can answer that, if they dare.

Current Mood: On the verge of self-destruction