Well my fustration at the world has subsided some yet I'm even more fustrated and angry with myself. You make ask how does that work, well its simple. I'm an idiot I caved I did what I didn't want to do. And this time I dont even know why I did it. I dont know what to do about it, I feel alone and like everything is my fault. I thought I was helping myself when I told my friend today by that just makes me feel more isolated. I dont know what else to do, I could tell someone else but I dont know who to tell or who to turn to. I know of a few others who have the same problem as me but it doesn't help how alone I feel. I dont know what to do I wont tell my parents because that wont help at all. Of the two people who know what I'm talking about only one can really help me, but I feel like a burden to her every time I even think about telling her. Did I tell her? Yes, do I feel it helped much, no. I have no idea what to do HELP!
The Magical Mellophone · Sat Jan 19, 2008 @ 03:48am · 0 Comments |