Alright well its time for me to check in. The last time I wrote I finally admitted I had a problem to a pretty freakin awesome guy. But I was an idiot about telling him. But its all good now thanks to him I told one of my best friends about my problem. I talked to her about it and it felt great, she understood and I felt better about it. Then came the problem(s) a week ago last Saturday I got sick, and sick bad. I got home around midnight and felt like s**t. I was so bad that I did it again but this time it was bad worse than any from before. I finally calmed down after talking to my friend on the phone for about two hours. I've been sick since then but I've been feeling a bit better well until I had to run the mile today. But the worst thing happened in fourth period today, I had the urge to do it again. It scared me, I was shaking. Last time it started that way to just an uncontrolable urge to do it. So here I am right now trying to deal with this urge to do something that I know I shouldn't do but I fell I need to do.
If you want to know what it is what this problem is you can ask but I dont think I'll tell you unless I think you should know. And if you do know please dont say any thing.
The Magical Mellophone · Tue Jan 15, 2008 @ 12:55am · 0 Comments |